and, welcome

I'm taking substack's advice.

transition is hard™️

Three years post-graduation, and I still don’t know what I am doing with myself. I feel like I'm going from one temporary job to another, trying to figure out where I'll end up. Like that sticky hand you threw at the wall when you were a kid and your mom got mad at because it left marks behind.

1. why this, why now?

I was a blogger for about nine years. I told my (now ex) therapist that I miss being chronically online. She said that I miss being distracted.

So, here I am. Throwing the sticky hand at the wall and trying to find out if it will stick. Also, I just quit my office 9-5(:30) job to be a barista again. I told myself that I would never be a barista again, and yet, here I am. Not because I dislike being a barista— I’ve done that rodeo— but because I feel like I needed to focus on my professionalism.

Even writing that makes me laugh. How is it professional to make almost the same amount as a barista, and be happier doing it? I choose happiness.

2. what kind of community are you looking to build here

I’m a writer and I enjoy writing for an audience. Sometimes I wonder if that is egotistical of me to think. Sometimes I fear I’m okay with that.

Mostly, I’m looking to fck around and find out. And to have like-minded people here to enjoy this little space on the internet? Hell yeah.

3. be specific

… this phrase will forever be implanted into my brain by my professor who taught many of my English classes when I was a wee undergraduate student. I hope this is specific enough.

4. use an image and “subscribe” buttons

Okay.

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5. ignore our advice

Okay.

Let’s do this thing.

xx Kenzie

(p.s. if Kim is reading this, I love you, and thank you for pushing me every day to be the best I can be. I’m sorry you’re dating a writer.)

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